Thursday, 13 December 2012

A flight to your heart


Arrived in sibu for one week or so! Didn't really take many pics because it's troublesome and heavy to bring a big ass DSLR around. So i guess most of the photos i took back in sibu are just photos of my own face =X hopefully, i will get chances to take more photos and upload it on my blog soon! And that last pic of my bleached ends are probably gonna get chopped off soon! Byebye dead hair. Anyways, happy holiday everyone! Hope you guys are enjoying your holiday as much as i do! wooohooooo ;D

Thursday, 6 December 2012

Raging session

I know writing such post on my blog is probably not a good idea, and i might hate myself tomorrow for posting such an annoying girly broken hearted princessy shit but i desperately need to released my feeling onto something. Since i know maybe telling someone about my relationship problems again and again will probably just annoyed the shit out of them. Im really not in the mood! Not happy! What the hell have gone wrong? It started off so perfect, like always. Then there is always just one random day that he will go cold on you. And you will think, maybe tomorrow will be better. But guess what, it never got better. It will only become worse and worse! Why does this kind of thing always happen to me? Giving all my heart in and always ended up with a broken heart? Is it my problem or what? I always tried my best to be the bestest possible girlfriend. Doing whatever you want me to do. Maybe I'm too attached? Maybe it's my fault to care too much.

I remembered how much you used to care. I remember you told me to never go clubbing, not to have guy friends and never even step out the house cause the world outside is too scary. I remembered i used to hate it cause i thought you were such a control freak. I remembered i complaint about it. But you told me ''you better be glad because i still care. One day when i dont control you, that's when you should be worried.'' Therefore, i listened to you. Stayed home and be the perfect girlfriend you wanted me to be. Never dare to break any rules that you set for me. But all of a sudden, you just changed. I mean like 180 degree. Totally different. You dont care no more.

You changed. We use to text 24/7 and talk on the phone every night for hours before we fall asleep. Slowly, it just gets less and less once you went back to your exciting life. The calls get so much lesser. If i am lucky enough, i will end up with one phone call per week that goes on for 10mins max. Then you told me you hate texting. Like, how come i didnt even know this before?? How come after we dated for half a year and u told me you hate texting? Distance and lack of communication? Not a very good combination.

And I'm so jealous of you. You're having fun with your life. Clubbing and getting drunk every night with billion of (girl) friends surrounded around you. I am just the silly one that still hold on to my phone every night hoping for a chance to a least be lucky enough to get a call from you that night. Being used to having you in my life not such a good thing after all.

I tried every way to get your heart back. I yelled, i cried, i kept quiet, i did anything possible. Nothing worked. I told myself, it must have been the distance. Few more days, i'll be seeing you. Just be patient. You know, when you have hopes, there will always be disappointments. Yes, thats right. Saw him in real life. Felt completely different. He's no longer the guy that i first fall in love with. The way he treats me, was no way near like before. It was like 80% more silence and 90% less laughters. I was really heart broken. Weird.. Most of the time, we just stayed quiet. Nothing to say. Somewhat awkward.

Crazy thinking back to the beginning, it could be sooo sweet that i can go all out of my mind. Believed anything that you said, everything you did. You told me to trust you and feel safe to give my whole heart to you. You told me that changing girlfriends are tiring, so might as well just stay with one for a very very long time. I believed you. I made you promised to never break my heart. Promises...... you're cruel.

Actually, it's the time thats cruel. It made you see things so clear. See how people changes. I just beg for that one person to appear in my life that will never ever break my heart. Seems stupid, but after so many times of heart breaking lessons, i still believe in love. Actually, love seems so unreal. They change quick, like way too quick. Quicker than anything. Starting to understand why some girls rather stay materialistic than finding a guy that she loves. Cause at least things lasts longer than love right? 

Tuesday, 27 November 2012

HELLO GUESS WHO'S FINALLY 18?




YAY! IT'S ME! Finally 18! wooohoooo, actually it has nothing to be so excited about. But being 18 means no more sneaking into clubs and lalalala to all the illegal stuff! Finally legall! :D so today, i thought it would be a very very lucky day and went to buy the first lotto ever in my life. I guess there is no luck for me today! How depressing, didnt even get a single number matched up the same as the results! :(

Anyways, i had a very very awesome day celebrating my birthday! Everything was just sooo good except for the weight gaining part! How much do i wish i could just eat all i want and not gain weight! Is that even possible? LOL i just love food so much and obviously im fat enough already! So, sorry body! :( My birthday wish is that i could eat and still stay skinny forever! Please come trueeeeeeee my wishhh! :D hehehehhe.

Now that the fun its over, its gonna be a super super busy week! There will only be work work work this week! But it's okay, IM GOING BACK TO SIBU IN 1 WEEK! That means seeing that special someone that i've been missing for a very very long time! Somewhat excited! :) I guess, when you're busy, time flies even faster right? Sooooooooo pleaseeee, i wish that time could pass a little quicker cause i really cant wait! :D

Okay, bedtime now! I had such a great time today though, actually i kind of not wanting this day to end! Im so glad that there are some really really awesome people in my life! There are just that few people that have been celebrating many many of my birthdays together already! I really love you guys! Super glad these people even exist in my life! :D And lastly, i shall wish myself happy birthday! So, happy 18th birthday Cynthia, hope you'll stay happy everyday for the rest of your life! :D  hehehehe

Goodnight people! :) xoxo

Tuesday, 30 October 2012

I'm back


Hai hai blog! when was the last time i came on blogging? About 5 months ago? LOL sorry for the long long disappear. I've been busy with my life.... Okay, i lied. Ive been incredibly lazy. Staying home everyday doing nothing besides gaining that extra bit of fat on my thighs.

So uni started, then work started. Unlike most people, some how they have ways to get their life so balanced. I have no idea how they do it? Like how could they be all smart and socialise-able, as well as having enough time to do a part time job. HOW?

But me? Since that last time i got too stressed out, i kind of stop wanting to go uni and work. All i ever want to do is stay in my bed and watch some asian drama. So i used to work around 25 hours per week until the 8 hours per week now. And also, i basically skipped all my lectures ever since the semester started. What happened to me?

I need to find a way to get back on track with my life somehow. Gonna go on a long long holiday back to malaysia and just relax myself. Hopefully that will bring me back to normal again!

I also just bought a new macbook air! So that means easier access to blogspot therefore more blogging? :D nahh, probably means more catching up on my ilectures! Have fun with life cynthia :( 

Monday, 7 May 2012

Sunday, 1 April 2012

APRIL AGAIN?!

Whoaaaaa, time flies D: I swear April 2011 wasn't even that long ago, but just in a few blinks, April 2012 already came and hit me in my face. Haih, soon im gonna turn 18, and maybe before i even know it, i'll be turning 50 with a wrinkly face, oh FML. Anyways, just trying to look a little younger so i got my fringe cut again, lol. But those bangs make my face look even chubbier than before, but hey i'll just call them the 'baby fat face' just to make myself feel a bit better and younger okay? lol
Oh yeah and i bought a cactus today (second picture below), super cute right? LOL new commitment, my baby plant. I know it's nearly impossible to kill a cactus but i hope i wont kill it so soon!
Anyways, here are some photos from march! :) and happy 01/04/2011 everyone :D




Sunday, 25 March 2012

TIREDDDD :(


Uni uni uni then work work work work work! Sooo super tired! :( But it feels like my days were super productive which is good in a way! Being busy is always better than staying home and live a depressing life right? But right now im super tired D: so studyyy breakkkkkkkkkk kuai dian lai, tyvm :D

Thursday, 23 February 2012

How well do you know Cynthia?





So i got really bored and was thinking what to blog about and yeah decided to challenge myself with this. It takes forever to even think of 50 facts, and i was actually thinking of writing 100 facts. Uhh i guess i just dont know myself that well D: But anyways, here you go, 50 random things about me :)

50 facts about me
1. I camwhore too much. LOL
2. My dream is to marry a white guy in the future so i could make pretty Eurasian babies.
3. I love horror movies.
4. I'm the youngest kid in the family.
5. My star sign is Sagittarius.
6. I still don't really know how to pronounce 'Sagittarius' =/
7. My birthday is on the exact same day as my mother's.
8.I have 6 piercings on me.
9. I am only 160cm tall.
10. I haven't grew any taller since 13!
11. My first taste of alcohol was at the age of 6.
12. I have to 'facebook' before bed or i will find it hard to sleep.
13. I love talking on the phone until late night while lying on the bed with the lights off.
14. I have a thing for pink underwear.
15. I can speak 3 languages QUITE fluently.
16. I've been to 10 different countries(that im old enough to remember).
17. I am the very clingy type of girlfriend.
18. I used to drink around 3-5 glass of milk per day because i thought it could make me grow taller.
19. Apparently, drinking 'those' milk didn't make me any taller.
20. My shoes size is 7/8.
21. The next country on my 'to visit' list is Korea.
22. I did ballet for 4 years when i was still a kid.
23. I got my P licence early this January but i STILL don't know how to drive safely.
24. I did not bribe the driving inspector, i swear.
25. I love baking cakes and cookies just that i never can be bother.
26. The first time i sneak into a club was at 13.
27. I am more like a summer person than a winter person.
28. I love cheese cakes.
29. I used to shave my baby hair cause i think it's ugly.
30. I was that typical girly kid that used to steal my mum's lipstick when she wasnt looking.
31. I always wanted a tragus piercing but never had a chance to get it.
32. I miss eating caramel popcorn in the movies instead of the salty type that we get in Australia.
33. When something happen, i usually think of the negative side first.
34. My face looks kind of angry in that second picture above.
35. I have only 1 dimple on my right cheek.
36. I tend to dwell on my past too much.
37. I don't believe in such thing call forever love.
38. Karaoke-ing with alcohol always have a crying ending for me.
39. I usually spent most of my sleepless night on fb stalking the person i misses the most.
40. I love japanese food and sushi is love <3
41. When listening to a particular song made me tear, i will put it on replay and cry my lungs out.
42. Sometimes i wish time could slow down a little.
43. I was once obsessed with playing badminton.
44. I sing 24/7, everywhere and anytime .
45. It's been the 6297th day since my first ever cry.
46. In such an 'apple-fied' world, im still using a crappy Nokia E71.
47. I always wanted waist length hair but my hair never get the chance to survive until then.
48. I am obsessed with tetris battle, could stay up all night playing it.
49. Somtimes i do wish time machine really exist.
50. I was gonna do a 100 facts about me instead of 50, but i totally ran out of ideas already D: lol

Thursday, 16 February 2012

心语



最近看到太多受伤的傻子,也感受到太多她们的心痛。所以最近的心情特别糟,为了不把东西复杂化,我只好一直把错都怪在这个炎热的天气。严重需要发泄!


给男人的话:
男人们,有些时候你们因该停下你们的脚步,放下你们身边的朋友,不管只有仅仅的10分钟也好,想想看你身边的那个她。其实,在你们做每一件事之前,都不妨想想她吧。朋友又那么重要吗?朋友会为你整理房间,会帮你做早餐,会是每天第一个把你叫醒的人吗?
对,也许有一种朋友会! 就是你们口口声声说‘只是朋友’的那一种。
一个爱你爱的傻的女人,虽然知道的,还是忍了。给了你12098524387612987361次的机会,却换回一刀一刀的刺痛。知道女人最害怕什么吗?就是她们给了真心,但你的心却是想着‘她’人的。却傻的审问自己,曾经只属于她一个人的心,去了哪里?是自己的错吗?


男人们,请不要等到你累了,玩够了,才记得还有一个她。因为,那时她可能已经聪明,开窍了。不再为了一个不值得的你等待。很好,你报应到了,后悔了。你失去的是一个永远都无法代替的她,而她得到的是未来的一片海阔天空。


给女人的话:
在想到那个不爱你的男人前,请你先为你自己着想。你要学会先爱自己,男人才会爱你。常做一些让自己身心灵开心和美丽的事。学者爱自己的内心,也学者爱自己的外表。


女人们,这个时代,外表是非常重要的。比如,如果你给一个不识字的小孩从5本书里选出1本书,他一定会选一本图案和颜色最漂亮/耀眼的书。同样的,一个不认识你的人会先从你的外表来判断你。所以,每天都要好好地对自己,就花一点点的时间来打扮自己。不要把钱吝啬在便宜的保养品和化妆品上。用妆来掩饰脸上的一点缺点是没罪的。如果化妆,整容能使一个女人变得漂亮和自信,那为何不?


一个女人的内在和外表其实是一样重要的。你花多少时间和精神来美化你的外表,你就要花一样多的时间来美化你的内在。因为你美丽的外表需要一颗配得上的内心。不然你就会是一个漂亮包装的礼物里的空盒子。收到的人起初会很兴奋,只是大打开后却会是极度的失望。


记得,美丽的内在发至于你的口,却是接收于男人的心。那一种魅力是谁都抵挡不住的。那时,你就会是真正的赢家。

Wednesday, 15 February 2012

JAPAN TRIP 2012







LITTLE KIDS, COME TO AUNTIEEE ;) HAHAHAHA


































So i went to japan early in January this year. It was a VERY tiring and cold trip but it was totally worth the experience. Japan was just simply such a nice and pretty place. Everyone there was crazily polite, and it seems like they will never say 'NO' to you/get angry at you or whatsoever. How niceee...

Uhmm, we also celebrated our Chinese new year there this year. But it was somewhat lonely since i saw all these pictures on facebook showing how much fun people were having in Malaysia for Chinese new year -jealous-. We did went out for dinner and stuff though on the chinese new year eve and did dress ourselves up prettily the next day. So in general, my Chinese new year turned out pretty well (Y) Not GREATT, but well...... you know lol.

And also, if you havent realised, i got a new banner up there!^ Actually, i wouldnt call that a banner. Its just another camwhore pic of mine LOLOLOL sorry, im just a little lazy to do fancy designs to my blog. Or maybe i just don't know how to do those fancy designs to my blog hahaha i make too many excuses in life sometimes. Anyways, off to bed now! Goodnight to all you cuties <3